The Childs' Perspective

[energeiold]

I awakened at about 9 years old and that age has remained being the age that kids start to really turn me on. I'm middle age now and am attracted to ages 9-adult. Girls about 10-16 are my weakness.

I actively wanted sex with adults even if I didn't understand everything that comes with sex. I had a hard crush on a longtime female family friend that carries on to this day. I remember her coming with us on a family trip and I tried a few times to see her boobs, even going so far as to try untying her bikini. Got my hand slapped away and a dirty look for that. She caught me trying to pretend I was asleep while she was changing and said "nice try" or something like that and I was mortified! I fantasized about sex with her a lot as I grew up.

I also fantasized a lot about my female teachers. I remember once getting caught looking down my 5th grade teacher's shirt when she was leaning over to talk to me. She noticed and fixed her shirt but didn't say anything.

Older female family members turned me on too. In my mid-teens, I remember my cousin's wife, who was a bit of a partygirl, getting drunk at a family party and pulling me in a little too close and telling me I've really grown up. I froze in the moment but that really turned me on and I kicked myself for not doing anything. I'd had a crush on her since I was a kid too. I got my first real look at boobs in my middle school years when I peeked in on her changing in a bedroom during another family party. I jerked it to those boobs for years!

As a teen I tried awkwardly flirting with some of the hotter moms too, but I was too much of a dork for that to go anywhere. Or maybe too clueless to know when to keep pushing. I was also interested in girls my age too. I spent a lot of time looking for cp, even though at that age I just wanted to see girls my own age naked and having sex.

I spent a lot of time in AOL chatrooms sexting and trading cp. It really turned me on when I would admit to being a teenager and they would keep going with me.This was before webcams, but if I'd had one then I don't doubt that there would have been videos of me on cam floating around on kazaa.

[OneLove]

As well as lusting after my mother, I also had crushes on some older cousins. Unfortunately no one ever stepped up to show me the ropes and break me in right.

[geekboy]

As a preteen I probably fantasized a lot more about boys my age. Sometimes boys a little older, but rarely adults. I did have a teacher who I had a bit of a crush on when I was in 5th grade. I liked to help out in the classroom. Too bad he wasn't a bl.

Well maybe he was, but was more into one of your schoolmates back then. I can relate to your little crush though. Do you sometimes fantasize about him and you back then? Tell me all the kinky details please.

What? I'm not cute enough? I don't really have many fantasies about him but looking back I probably wouldn't have minded if he started a little something.

[Shatterhand]

well i had a number of sexual experiences with cousins and friends when i was a kid.  There were only a few adults that i had a crush on when was from 6 to about 12 yrs old.  They were a few teachers, all female.

[TheLadyGirl]

at 9 i was so into my friends dad he was such a hunk and was quite close to me, i wondered might be hiding under his jeans but sadly she moved away and i never saw her dad again
i had a few other fancies too but nothing as strong as that with her dad
xxx

[TSall]

Until I was 13, I only had experiences with kids my age or younger. Then, a camp counselor, maybe 20, had his way with me regularly for the summer, and I enjoyed it. I enjoyed the attention, thinking I was special. I sought that attention from there.

[Jvex9]

I had a babysitter once a week during the summer months when I was around 8, he was in his early 30s or so. We would watch television and stuff, and he would gently coerce me into doing sexual things, mostly just him touching me and letting me touch him and explaining stuff to me about sex. Eventually his wife started to come over from time to time, and eventually she started to join in with the sexual stuff, and it started to slowly escalate into oral, but they never forced me into anything, they always asked if I was okay, and told me I could stop at anytime, that they loved me. I know now that it was textbook grooming, but they made me feel so comfortable though, and I actually really enjoyed it. I loved that I could explore my sexually with people who I felt cared about me, and started to look forward to seeing them each week during the summer. Eventually they got busted when I was around 12, and when I was interviewed I denied everything about it to protect them, I was devastated that I wouldn't see them anymore. I have no idea where they are today, but to this day I feel like they had a positive impact on me.

[Driver247]

I think I was born with a very strong sex drive and it kicked in when I reached puberty. When I was growing up there was no such thing as the internet. Porn was only in back allies, even the girly magazines were only allowed to show tits and asses. When I was about 12 years old I liked a girl in my neighborhood and she liked me. She was very pretty and I knew I wanted to have sex with her but I didn't know how to go about it at the time. I can't tell you what she wanted because I was shy about talking to her. Sex was a taboo subject in my family, it was simply not at all talked about or even mentioned. As a result I had no one to teach me about sex. I had to fined out all on my own, mostly from other kids. Of course most of it was wrong. I think this happens to a lot of kids, both boys and girls. It's a shame society is so up tight about sex because it is forcing kids to learn about sex from other kids and most of what they learn is wrong. Parents think they are protecting their kids but they are actually hurting them by forcing them to get wrong information.     

[Midamoto]

I think I was born with a very strong sex drive and it kicked in when I reached puberty. When I was growing up there was no such thing as the internet. Porn was only in back allies, even the girly magazines were only allowed to show tits and asses. When I was about 12 years old I liked a girl in my neighborhood and she liked me. She was very pretty and I knew I wanted to have sex with her but I didn't know how to go about it at the time. I can't tell you what she wanted because I was shy about talking to her. Sex was a taboo subject in my family, it was simply not at all talked about or even mentioned. As a result I had no one to teach me about sex. I had to fined out all on my own, mostly from other kids. Of course most of it was wrong. I think this happens to a lot of kids, both boys and girls. It's a shame society is so up tight about sex because it is forcing kids to learn about sex from other kids and most of what they learn is wrong. Parents think they are protecting their kids but they are actually hurting them by forcing them to get wrong information.     

I second you on that. It's an absolute shame that your experience is very common. I myself was eager to learn about sex from a purely scientific perspective when i was little, and did not understand why it was the one thing that adults didn't want to let me learn. Retrospectively, I would have gained a lot from knowing very early on, since I have clear memories of utter confusion from when I was maybe five or six years old, and started having sexual urges towards my sister and other girls. I thought I was going crazy. I can't even imagine how it is for the many girls who don't know what the hell is happening to them when they get their first periods.

[lovenakedgirl]

I think I was born with a very strong sex drive and it kicked in when I reached puberty. When I was growing up there was no such thing as the internet. Porn was only in back allies, even the girly magazines were only allowed to show tits and asses. When I was about 12 years old I liked a girl in my neighborhood and she liked me. She was very pretty and I knew I wanted to have sex with her but I didn't know how to go about it at the time. I can't tell you what she wanted because I was shy about talking to her. Sex was a taboo subject in my family, it was simply not at all talked about or even mentioned. As a result I had no one to teach me about sex. I had to fined out all on my own, mostly from other kids. Of course most of it was wrong. I think this happens to a lot of kids, both boys and girls. It's a shame society is so up tight about sex because it is forcing kids to learn about sex from other kids and most of what they learn is wrong. Parents think they are protecting their kids but they are actually hurting them by forcing them to get wrong information.     

I can agree with this thought!
However, one must take into account the fact that not all adults treat children adequately, tenderly and caringly.
For those who only use their own sexual instincts without regard to children's health and children's psyche,
it is necessary to apply laws against violence (my opinion)

[TahBu]

I had serious crushes on some older female cousins (a few of which engaged in some sexual play with me), and on the women I saw when I was sneaking under my parent's bed to read my dad's Penthouse magazines.

[SOCRATES2000]

I've made no bones about my desire for girls (at least determining why they were different from me) from a very early age.  I never felt that way about any girls older than me by about a year, and then, only as an opportunity.  Most of the time, the girls were my age or younger (usually younger sisters of friends of mine).  I can't recall a single adult (or semi-adult) female from when I was younger that I had any interest in.

[samnazt]

We usually talk about how we - as adults, young or old - perceive the wonderful bodies and minds of children, boys and girls. We may fantasize about relationships in the form of friendships or sexual encounters with heavy breathings and flickering hearts. Or something like it. We call ourselves pedophiles, as if this would adequately describe our personality, which is much richer than outsiders may perceive us; every one of us unique. But let's not talk about us now. Not as we are. Instead let's close our eyes and remember. What kind of kids have we been? What made us wonder regarding the world of adults? What kind of relationships did we fantasize about?

As a child what kind of relationship with teens or adults did you fantasize about or even pursue or have?

I can vividly remember how in fifth grade - i was around 11 years old - I fell in love with my young female teacher in primary school. She was just beautiful and I was drawn to beauty and open to encounters of any kind, even though I didn't know much about the topic of sex, which is a shame I think.
Around that age I also was very curious about the body of my one aunt. One day as part of a family trip I sneaked up to a window of the little vacation house she was in and could watch her naked lying on a bed, her pubic hair clearly visible to me. I was fascinated and drawn to it.

I couldn't wait to have sex with a woman. Pornography was not widespread in my days, neither was the Internet. And I think I like this in hindsight, since it made me pursue real life encounters.

Today I sometimes dream to be a child again having sexual encounters with both women and men, but that's maybe part of another discussion.

My parents were both swingers, and although they went to great lengths to hide that from me, boys will be boys and find things out. Like finding their stash of homemade porn. Word to the wise to all the parents out there. Lol. I was probably 10-ish when I found it, and got immediately hooked. I expect it was formative in my sexual desires, since I went on to have multiple fantasies about multiple older women in my life. Teachers, neighborhood moms, girlfriends of my mom, etc. I expect it was the strength of those first experiences and fantasies that makes "pedomom" material so hot to me know. Much more so than the typical M/g stuff. I would have happily done anything an adult female wanted to do with me and am quite certain I would have regarded it as a positive experience today.

Jane is a little different, in that her early experiences were same-sex, starting at 9, with neighborhood girlfriends. She credits that childhood time to explaining why she is Bi now. Her adult crushes were therefore also women for the most part, to include one neighbor who was a new mom when Jane was perhaps 14 and the woman was mid 20s. She used to hang out over there quite bit. Mostly because she just liked her in general, but also because Jane hoped to watch her breastfeed her infant. ALWAYS turned Jane on, to the point she often went to the bathroom so she could masturbate about it.

Don and Jane

Oh wow, in my case I actually experienced it with my aunt. I am sure it had started earlier than when i was 4, but my memories only started from 4 or 5, to this day I love my aunt, still in touch with her. I too find the pedomom very attractive for that reason. to me that the most erotic format. When i was a kid i was very attracted to mom also, but she never responded to my advances so nothing ever happened, to this day I crave that link.

[smynevem]

teacher , mother , dad , classmate ,

[hiatus]

When I was a preteen I had a few fantasies about the live in nanny we had.  However as soon as I hit puberty (probably around 11-12) my fantasies quickly went the other way in age. namely my neighbors youngest kids, about 5 years younger than me. I wish something had happened with her for sure. used to look out a side window of my house a lot when she was in her pool.