If you could become a non-pedophile...

[altpedboy88]

no, this is not a choice is the way i am, im a boy lover i love kids and im proud of it no matter what.

[Arcan]

I would definitely take the pill.  I have always thought that if I was attracted to middle-aged overweight women I'd be a thousand times happier than I am being attracted to young athletic girls.

[the.sandwich]

So I know this is literally a community dedicated to the defense of pedophilia and dedicated to "good pedophilia with consent", but do you sometimes wish you weren't a pedo?

So first of all, I am a pedo. But I really wish I was "normal" and don't view pedophilia in the most positive way, and my "friend" (y'know) is an absolute pedo, but he also thinks pedophilia is wrong (by the way, he is my age).

But in general, I think there are more pedos out there that really wished they weren't one.

[AlexUnder]

I can't answer with 100% honesty, because I don't know.  Pedophilia has never been the center of my life: my "social" life, including dating, sex, and marriage, has been age-appropriate.  I've had sexual relations with a handful of kids (no pun intended) over the years, but it was consensual and they seemed to enjoy it.  So I can't say that I regret my actual experiences with kids.

I do wish that I'd never discovered child pornography. I was aware of my attraction to kids very early; I first consciously realized "Wow, you're one of those freaks who likes kids!" when I was 17.  But, since I wasn't pursuing kids or trying to seduce them, it didn't worry me.  It was like discovering, "Hey! This Mexican food is really good! I love Italian food, but this is good, too!"

But then I stumbled across CP. (To be precise, I received an ad for it in the mail — snail mail, 30 years before personal computers.) And I couldn't get my mind off those images, so I started seeking them out: more images, not more children.  Fast forward a few decades, and I was in prison for possession and distribution.  I definitely regret that!

I'm not blaming CP for my pedophilia: that would be bullshit.  But, without the CP, my pedo thoughts would have occupied much less of my time and energy.

Things are easier, now that I'm getting old. I haven't touched a "child" in 30 years. I've never been indicted or convicted of any "hands-on" offense, no molestation, so my prison experience was brief. Now, I can enjoy sexual memories and fantasies about children, without it disrupting my life.  This community has even helped me kick the CP habit — although that's a lifelong struggle.

I don't regret finding kids "sexy."  Because sex is just a small part of pedophilia. It's the personalities, the ways of thinking, the sheer cuteness of children that draws me to them. If you asked me, "What is your favorite sexual activity with a child?" I'd answer, honesty: "cuddling."

[ijp]

I merged with another long running similar topic.

I'll reaffirm what I said here years ago - I would do it. I think that this condition, while I've accepted it, is something that makes my life harder. I've made a lot of good friends dealing with it, and I know that it can make me pay closer attention to children. But I know that even if I wasn't attracted to them I would still love and respect children, and do good for them. I just wouldn't have the associated urges, and I'd have a better shot at relationships with girls my own age, assuming that my attraction for them is also normalized.

[AlexUnder]

I merged with another long running similar topic.

I'll reaffirm what I said here years ago - I would do it. I think that this condition, while I've accepted it, is something that makes my life harder. I've made a lot of good friends dealing with it, and I know that it can make me pay closer attention to children. But I know that even if I wasn't attracted to them I would still love and respect children, and do good for them. I just wouldn't have the associated urges, and I'd have a better shot at relationships with girls my own age, assuming that my attraction for them is also normalized.

Aha! I knew I detected the presence of a staff person. I hope that my two answers aren't too contradictory!

[cloverheart]

Interesting question. I gave it a thought and my conclusion is that I wouldn't. I love loving what I love and it's part of who I am. It's probably impossible to be accepted by society but I accepted myself and now I can't deny it.

[AlexUnder]

. . . .but I accepted myself and now I can't deny it.

Man, that's a beautiful statement. I wish everyone who "enjoys" ("appreciates" would be a better word) their attraction could feel that way. It's hard to stand up against "the world."

[cloverheart]

. . . .but I accepted myself and now I can't deny it.

Man, that's a beautiful statement. I wish everyone who "enjoys" ("appreciates" would be a better word) their attraction could feel that way. It's hard to stand up against "the world."

Thanks!
Some times I get a tiny hope that things might be starting to change but it is hard to be optimistic. I believe though that the rise of the lgbt movement is something that can let people understand this whole "is not an option" thing and that might make people understand us better as well.

[GirlsAreBest]

Thanks!
Some times I get a tiny hope that things might be starting to change but it is hard to be optimistic. I believe though that the rise of the lgbt movement is something that can let people understand this whole "is not an option" thing and that might make people understand us better as well.

The LGBTQ+ community refuses to put a "P" in there, although there have been a handful that have spoken out in favor of it mostly to represent celibate pedophiles. I read an article that... sigh... used the "N" word  (normalization) as basically the be all, end all of why that cannot happen. In other words, it would "normalize" the discussion of pedophilia, of which I got the sense they saw it as a slippery slope.

...except no, if you are only representing pedophiles that abstain from sexual contact with minors then even they do not believe it should be acted upon. So how is there any potential for "normalizing" anything? Is the fear people will start to think it is okay in spite of those individuals not condoning it? What sense does that make? It is the purest form of paranoia. And quite frankly it is fucked up that such a non-issue is keeping some of the most persecuted groups from empathizing with THE most persecuted group.

Hell, I would even accept it being impossible because putting a "P" or whatever letter agreed upon to distinguish between contact and non-contact would instantly turn the vast majority against them including allies. That makes sense. But this "normalization" nonsense that has decades of study and research suggesting it may not even exist is but the modern equivalent of the crusade against violent video games, and violent film before that, and so on. Talking about something does not make that something okay. And if people think that is not the case, then we are holding humanity to a ridiculously, dangerously low standard.

ou asked me, "What is your favorite sexual activity with a child?" I'd answer, honesty: "cuddling

I will admit I don't envy "normal" people in this ONE instance because I truly believe that feeling you get when you are holding a child is unique and powerful. I'm not even convinced all pedophiles feel it, since there are many who seem to be hyper focused on the sexual aspect and nothing else.

But I would take that pill assuming it is capable of not making miss that feeling. No matter how good I am at controlling myself, there is always a chance and a child in my presence will always be objectively safer if this wasn't a thing. And of course there is the having to live with it 24/7 whether that entails yearning for contact for long stretches of having none, the anxiety and loneliness induced or having to keep the secret from loved ones and others until I die. I also do not have the luxury of using an adult relationship as a satisfactory alternative. I have not enough desire to initiate one. I am lonely far more often then not because of it and I am tired of being alone.

[maow_purr]

Absolutely!

[dadof1]

give me the pill. I would take it in a heartbeat.

[Morally Grey]

First I'd like to say that 15% of my age is considerably lower than my AOA. So not really a automatic no nore is my age affecting my AOA. Life expectancy would put me around the goldilocks zone of my AOA when I'm on my deathbed. That being said. I probably wouldn't take it because while taking away this feeling. Would be good at least in theory. In order to do that you'd have to take away the things things that lead me to the feelings but those things are tide into things that made me who I am today. Then there's the fact that if you just got rid of just the feelings themselves. There's really no way to prevent/be 100% certain that they won't comeback if I encounter a similar or the same thing that unlocked them in the first place. See Total recall Or Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. For the dangers of messing with memory/feelings and how it could and probably would go totally wrong.

[explosion23895]

I am surprised from the amount of "No" responses. I would fund development and take the first trial! Sexual response causes me a great amount of social and personal difficulty. I am more consistent and moral and engage in valued activities with more fervor when my sexual desire is minimal.

[indeepdaddy]

Put me in the "No" catagory, its me and its who I want to be (pedo).