wtf is a "topic link"

[Tright]

is that a cp thing?

honestly this whole site is kinda weirding me out. Its not just the fact that you guys are preds, its the fact that your so tasteless about it too. In my opinion, lolicons are way better, they have an actual appreciation for good art. The actual kids in your profile pictures is weird too. Why not make it a cute anime girl? its just weird. I dont understand this place at all. Im pretty sure i need a child pornography PHD to understand a place like this

but anyway thats just what i have been thinking. This is off topic so... =b
listen im not a pdfile. It was a one time thing that made me end up here. But i can never forgive my past action. Maybe this place is a bad influence on me

do you know who i respect more? manga artists. The ones that draw the loli doijins. They take their pent up emotions and make something with it without hurting anyone. Honestly this whole tor thing has been getting me stressed as frick for the past couple days. I have no clue if my opsec is good and im super paranoid

[ijp]

-1 for the animocity, the entire internet already hates pedophiles, that's not a unique perspective, and it's not constructive.

is that a cp thing?

Yeah kinda.

honestly this whole site is kinda weirding me out. Its not just the fact that you guys are preds, its the fact that your so tasteless about it too. In my opinion, lolicons are way better, they have an actual appreciation for good art. The actual kids in your profile pictures is weird too. Why not make it a cute anime girl? its just weird. I dont understand this place at all. Im pretty sure i need a child pornography PHD to understand a place like this

Quite rude honestly :\ Many of us, my self included, have no interest in, or pledge to abstain with actual contact with children. We don't want to hurt kids, that's the ethos of the site. People can be tasteless here, for many it's the only place they feel they can talk about their feelings at all, and get comfortable with it. Words aren't a crime, you can always ignore topics or members you find unsavory.

Saying "lolicons are better" is really reductive. Many here would consider themselves lolicons, and use lolicon as an alternative to CP. Some here, including myself, use this site specifically as a way to escape CP. It can be addictive and a great amount of it is horrible. Still we don't pass judgement on other members, because it is addictive and it preys on our desires too much to avoid. Watching unsavory CP is still better than hurting a little one.

I actually agree somewhat about the avatars, I believe these children in people's avatars would not consent to their images being used in this way. My own avatar is AI generated for this reason. We use pictures like this for the exact same reason people use cute anime avatars though, they're pictures we find cute. Again we don't pass judgement here, it's a support community. Putting someone down for their avatar choice does nothing to make us feel better, or improve the lives of any child.

but anyway thats just what i have been thinking. This is off topic so... =b
listen im not a pdfile. It was a one time thing that made me end up here. But i can never forgive my past action. Maybe this place is a bad influence on me

do you know who i respect more? manga artists. The ones that draw the loli doijins. They take their pent up emotions and make something with it without hurting anyone. Honestly this whole tor thing has been getting me stressed as frick for the past couple days. I have no clue if my opsec is good and im super paranoid

That's literally what we're trying to do here. This community is about discussing these feelings and working on them in a way that will reduce harm toward children. Many of us, myself included, went through intense self hatred, as you are now. We exist here to help people through those feelings, as hating yourself is not productive. You don't need to be a pedophile to be here, we don't want to make you into one. I don't think most of us believe we could change you in that way. We didn't choose to have these feelings towards children. I don't believe you chose to feel the way you did either. If it's just one time that's great, but for many of us here, it's not, and it doesn't go away even if we wish it would.

Opsec is a reasonable concern, however the content of this site is legal in most jurisdictions, and really the only section which could be illegal is the literature section - which is not the main purpose of the site. The reason we're on Tor is to defend ourselves from vigilantes, and to provide adequate anonymity for people to be completely honest about the things they've done. Whether it's watching CP, having actual sex with a minor, or just their innermost thoughts.

[Tright]

im sorry. but i guess im just a judgmental type of person. Especially when it comes to something like this. i guess i misunderstood what dis place is supposed to be

[Tright]

you know what man? theres a difference between people like me and people like you. People with class and people without it. I have a built in baramater for appreciating that witch has surpassed the realm of the ordinary and went into the realm of awesome shit. I have taste. anime pfps are art. You used AI to generate something. Something without soul. Nothing was ventured and nothing was gained

and from my perspective this whole website seems to be super contradictory. (and this is another thing i hate. whyyyyy tf do i have to say gay things like "in my opinion" and "from my perspective" on a darknet pedo forum. I thought i would run into cool hackers, but instead my base instincts took over and clouded my mind. Now im a 100% gay fourm. not that thats a bad thing, i guess). and before you say anything, i might have autism, im a bit stupid, my brain hasnt technically fully developed. so yes im a bit retarded. but i still think im right. maybe instead of support, i need to forge my own path. that would build my character

i just have to say things like it is. Im an incel, okay? I look at the world and i just try and see the unfortunate truth. Forums are rlly hard. so hard to respond to everything. im not even responding. im just typing my thoughts. ill respond more to what you typed later. i have a weird feeling in my soul right now

i dont know man. i just think im enlightened or something. Like...i am JUST right. no fucking question. And we all know what my life is going to be like in 15 years. You think 9 year old cunny is appealing? no man. Think were im gonna end up in 15 years. BRO. i could give you all the cunny you want. I could give you everything. Yet you still would look at my life and go "damn that guys life is pretty good". i have so much anxiety. but now im euphoric. my emotions are rlly weird

my whole life theyve tried to push me over the edge. but they dont realize everything just makes me stronger

EDIT- oh and using emoticons are cute. do cute things more, and not cute things less. its really that simple. or maybe dont. maybe you can leave that to people like me. thats so beautiful. i just realized that beautiful people are blessed with beautiful souls. Sometimes i feel like my soul has been tainted but maybe it hasnt fully been corrupted yet. but... i cant take much more... i need to fix it asap or there might not be any going back

*a great feeling of dread fills my soul*

[nyarla]

 I agree there is definitely difference between most member of this community and asshole prick like you.

[Tright]

I agree there is definitely difference between most member of this community and asshole prick like you.

but im just being myself. stop making me feel bad. your just making me stronger. basically like free xp. kinda weird. like im not complaining but... sometimes i just wanna chill without feeling like im farming xp all the time

i act like myself usually so maybe thats why insults hurt so much ;b
damn i wish i used how to use the smile icons

[Tright]

holy shit you guys think im retarded dont you? hehehe
you fucking assholes (when you read this imagine gon from hxh powering up and looking cool as fuck with a ton of fucking nen around him. the sound track is getting fucking insane and cool. or imagine im a jojo character)
my superior intelligence will guide me through all my troubles in life. This...is my special ability

my emotions that give me a battle advantage that needs to be temperd with cold intellect. this is how i will overcome my adversity

your trying to trick me by getting me emotional...
simple tricks will not work on me

so i apologize for offending both of you. what do you think about that? you really thought you could make me angry? no... i must use my anger for a higher purpose. i must

EDIT- im very stupid. so stupid in fact that people very often think im trolling. no dude, im not trolling. im just like this. im actually like this. this is how my mind works. im like a retard or something. i have no idea. im just extremely euphoric right now. i think im in a happy phase

EDIT- actually glad that i got a -1 karma. now i have the exact same number as rikko. that nigga has the cutest shota pfp<3

[Tright]

i dont think im a bad person
you guys are really confusing me and your making my mind have error messages

im not here to get confused by you. im here so i can never repeat my mistake again

[ijp]

yikes, I hope you find your peace, but this isn't the place for you.