Pedo death

[zergrush111]

Im floating a term here thats based on a term thats used a lot in gay circles called "twink death". In its essence twink death is when a twink grows up, they lose a lot of their youthful appearance that made them once attractive, and are forced to either settle down or accept they arent going to get what they once had at 21 in their early to mid 30s. Its similar to the "wall" for women. Basically you get old, and the chances of experiences what you once did dies. I started to notice this around the time I turned 30 and it continued to get worse and worse as time progressed. Eventually I grew up, the young teenage girls disappeared completely. The kids in general disappeared completely. I stopped being seen as the secret and exciting older guy, and now as someone who is too old and too creepy. You go from older guy, to parent, to grandparent age, it just seems to get worse the further the age gap gets. Minors are less likely to want to do anything with you because at first it was wrong in a exciting way, now its wrong in a deeply disturbing way. This is why I think a lot of the time when you see arrests its middle aged guys. The kid is far more likely to report it if they feel something is "wrong". And it seems like in my experience when the gap is over fifteen years thats when it gets triggered.

I could also just be talking out my ass and in reality im just, for some reason or another, stuck in a serious rut. Would you guys say it gets more difficult to be a pedo the older you get?

[zergrush111]

To add to this, the reason why i thought about making this topic is because i have a buddy who has a neighbor who tried to give his 15 year old son weed. The neighbor in question is in his 60s and immediately my friend thought he was a pedo trying to fuck his son. Giving weed to minors is one thing, but the jump to pedophilia to me is abrupt and is what im talking about. Guy could be just trying to be nice or something. Who knows. But because hes older its immediately assumed pedophile. And in our case, if you are actually a pedo, that makes getting away with stuff significantly harder. I also think, from what i remember from when i was a kid, there is a greater discomfort if someone is old enough to be your dad. Idk if there is any younger people on here that can agree or disagree with me. I feel like my consensual, fun, pedo days are quickly going behind me. And living with that is rough. Because i really want to just love and embrace a child. I regret not taking advantage of the chances i got in my youth to experience it more and more. Now im wanting something in a time of my life where its getting more and more dangerous.

If any of you know what im talking about, how do you deal with the fact you probably will never kiss or cuddle with a kid? Or do anything with them unless they are your own and even then, only to a certain level?

[Shady]

Eventually I grew up, the young teenage girls disappeared completely. The kids in general disappeared completely. I stopped being seen as the secret and exciting older guy, and now as someone who is too old and too creepy.

To be frank, this sounds more like a general issue than just pedo explusive. Like even non-pedo suffer from this. Still, their chance for tapping is higher than us simply because they can fish more publicly.

To add to this, the reason why i thought about making this topic is because i have a buddy who has a neighbor who tried to give his 15 year old son weed. The neighbor in question is in his 60s and immediately my friend thought he was a pedo trying to fuck his son. Giving weed to minors is one thing, but the jump to pedophilia to me is abrupt and is what im talking about. Guy could be just trying to be nice or something. Who knows. But because hes older its immediately assumed pedophile.

Well, some parents do be overreacting over the most trivial things. I know a friend whose parents are absolute Stalins. They dictates everything he does and accuses anyone that tries to befriend him, including me, as malevolent intenders. Like, chill out, wtf. He's still single now btw and still doesn't know what a tampon is. Crazy work.

If any of you know what im talking about, how do you deal with the fact you probably will never kiss or cuddle with a kid? Or do anything with them unless they are your own and even then, only to a certain level?

I did mention earlier that I've given up on romance altogether. But I do wish I could for once feel that tenderness of a child on my dick without facing consequences. The closest I had as an adult was accidental brushes on my students. I'm fine with not getting it now. Masturbation is fine and all that. But I too fear the day that masturbation just doesn't cut it for me anymore. Human's taste and pov can change after half a decade or so.

[Zepp]

i have a buddy who has a neighbor who tried to give his 15 year old son weed. The neighbor in question is in his 60s and immediately my friend thought he was a pedo trying to fuck his son.

I have read this several times now, and it makes no sense.
You should probably stop smoking weed when you write these stories here.

[Lillab]

i have a buddy who has a neighbor who tried to give his 15 year old son weed. The neighbor in question is in his 60s and immediately my friend thought he was a pedo trying to fuck his son.

I have read this several times now, and it makes no sense.
You should probably stop smoking weed when you write these stories here.

I am not sure what doesn't make sense to you. Are you just getting lost with all the pronouns? Here, let me clarify:

i have a buddy who has a neighbor. The neighbor tried to give my buddy's 15 year old son weed. The neighbor is in his 60s. Immediately my buddy thought the neighbor was a pedo trying to fuck my buddy's son.

[on the rocks]

The kids/young get further and further away until one can't even see them anymore.  Like a metaphor for the distant future of the Universe.  With everything expanding out there, eventually all the galaxies and stars will be so far apart from each other that you won't be able to see anything but blackness.  (The stars being all white dwarfs and brown dwarfs by then.)

It's entropy. 

But to keep a twinge of hope alive, children and the young may still find a 'old' person beyond their 'pedo death' interesting.  As long as one is still put together relatively well, a silver fox might still pique their interest.

[zergrush111]

The kids/young get further and further away until one can't even see them anymore.  Like a metaphor for the distant future of the Universe.  With everything expanding out there, eventually all the galaxies and stars will be so far apart from each other that you won't be able to see anything but blackness.  (The stars being all white dwarfs and brown dwarfs by then.)

It's entropy. 

But to keep a twinge of hope alive, children and the young may still find a 'old' person beyond their 'pedo death' interesting.  As long as one is still put together relatively well, a silver fox might still pique their interest.

It makes me feel very empty that I didn't enjoy having children climb on me and hug me as much as I did. As a teen its crazy due to the daycare my mom ran out of our house how much physical affection I got from kids as a blossoming, but scared, pedo. Im sure a lot of you remember my old posts. It was drenched in fear and panic. Nowadays its more sad or disturbing but not as scared as I used to be. I remember it was a fairly common occurrence to just have a little boy or girl in my arms, no one really thought much about it, I got physical contact so much and I think my fear was from the love of life I had, I was afraid of losing it all, but in the end I lost it anyways and was left not really caring much about life. It makes me miss it a lot. I just want to hold them again, talk to them, feel their skin on mine. The painful memories is kissing and cuddling, I sometimes close my eyes and imagine it again and again. But, as you said, maybe one day ill feel it again. I hope so. Ill really savor it if I do.

I also wonder if "pedo death" is how some of us get caught later in life. Why a lot of busts are middle aged guys. When I was a teen and young adult I planned out everything, I had so much security and so much thought into everything. Now I don't care. Those middle aged guys stop caring too, they just want to relive their youth, signs get ignored, plans get tossed, and in the end, they get busted chasing old highs with suicidal idealization. Or they keep trying to increase the risk due to normalization. Ive known i was a pedo for over 19 years now. If you dont get caught young(which is most pedos due to reasons i mentioned above), you'll have a high tolerance to this, much higher than most people. What you consider normal is horrific for most. And that creates a drive to find whats shocking to you, the high tolerance guy. Or you just get used to the illegal stuff and stop caring which puts you at a severe legal risk

[nyarla]

The kids/young get further and further away until one can't even see them anymore.  Like a metaphor for the distant future of the Universe.  With everything expanding out there, eventually all the galaxies and stars will be so far apart from each other that you won't be able to see anything but blackness.  (The stars being all white dwarfs and brown dwarfs by then.)

It's entropy. 

You say the most beautiful thinks OTR! Indeed chaos is slowly devouring reality itself bringing all of you slowly towards total rift when even the basic building blocks of reality will self annihilate filling the void in with an incomprehensible madness of primeval energy. I can't wait to glory in it as reality dies!
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Yeah it is a weird phenomena and it is very tight to one AoI for me as soon as early sign of puberty hits that magic is gone.

[on the rocks]

I also wonder if "pedo death" is how some of us get caught later in life. Why a lot of busts are middle aged guys. When I was a teen and young adult I planned out everything, I had so much security and so much thought into everything. Now I don't care. Those middle aged guys stop caring too, they just want to relive their youth, signs get ignored, plans get tossed, and in the end, they get busted chasing old highs with suicidal idealization. Or they keep trying to increase the risk due to normalization. Ive known i was a pedo for over 19 years now. If you dont get caught young(which is most pedos due to reasons i mentioned above), you'll have a high tolerance to this, much higher than most people. What you consider normal is horrific for most. And that creates a drive to find whats shocking to you, the high tolerance guy. Or you just get used to the illegal stuff and stop caring which puts you at a severe legal risk

Some fraction probably also doesn't quite keep up with the threat model they face as technology of the surveillance state advances inexorably  toward dystopia. 

[Lillab]

I also wonder if "pedo death" is how some of us get caught later in life. Why a lot of busts are middle aged guys. When I was a teen and young adult I planned out everything, I had so much security and so much thought into everything. Now I don't care. Those middle aged guys stop caring too, they just want to relive their youth, signs get ignored, plans get tossed, and in the end, they get busted chasing old highs with suicidal idealization. Or they keep trying to increase the risk due to normalization. Ive known i was a pedo for over 19 years now. If you dont get caught young(which is most pedos due to reasons i mentioned above), you'll have a high tolerance to this, much higher than most people. What you consider normal is horrific for most. And that creates a drive to find whats shocking to you, the high tolerance guy. Or you just get used to the illegal stuff and stop caring which puts you at a severe legal risk

Some fraction probably also doesn't quite keep up with the threat model they face as technology of the surveillance state advances inexorably  toward dystopia.

I think this is pretty close. It's less that people get lazy and lower their protections, but rather stop updating their protection as things change. What worked for you 20 years ago likely won't work still. It's an arms race, LE is getting better, and the bear catches the slowest prey. The older you get, the harder it becomes to keep up with technology. For the non-digital stuff, well, your flirting was charming 20 years ago, but you try the same thing now, it comes off as creepy. I suppose this is the Pedo Death you are describing, but it definitely hits some people harder than others. Just like with the digital stuff, you have to keep improving your game. You need to take care of yourself physically. You need to increase your emotional awareness, and better understand what people are feeling and thinking, how to read the situation. You need to do a lot more to focus on others, and make sure they are having the best experience possible. Your physical appeal drops, and you must compensate with other forms of appeal, but there are a lot of ways to do so (valuable experience, compassion, connections, power, wealth and generosity).

A huge factor in whether someone turns you in comes from how much you have charmed them. It's not just charming the person you are pursuing, but everyone else that might speak up. If you aren't charming, then you are creepy, and people feel they need to do something about it. That's how you trigger alarms. It's the creep people are looking out for, so the less attractive you become, the more it will trigger people to try to come after you. Just look at Michael Jackson, he had giant crowds of people trying to defend him, unwilling to face the evidence, simply because they like him. The same happens with tons of celebrities and religious leaders. When people like you, they cut you slack. If you aren't careful, the older you become the less likable you become, and looks is a big part of this.

If you don't keep growing, and instead get complacent, you get culled from the herd. Some people never change their behaviors, and that lands them into trouble eventually. The older you get, the harder you have to work to stay safe. Both technology and charm are easier for younger people.

[TooLittleTime]

I experienced pedo and hebe death in my very early thirties. And then I got over the despair, found new ways to have young ones in my life, and the emptiness of those days is only a vague memory. But it took many, many years.

Are thing different? Yes, I certainly don't have full on sex with Hebe's like I occasionally could. But that is a factor of safety more than ability. Or so I tell myself