Hey there,
I'll start by saying that I agree to follow the rules and guidelines.
I've been lurking here for a long while now, and have made the decision to try and finally sign up and join this interesting community. I honestly don't remember how I found this site, I think I was playing around on one of the those tor search engines, and a thread from this site came up as one of the results. Anyways, a little about myself, I'm a man who absolutely adores little girls, unfortunately to the point of near exclusivity. I have had relationships with adults, but it's been exceedingly rare for me to feel genuinely attracted to someone who is age appropriate for a long time now. Predictably, having this attraction has made it rather difficult to make friends or even be able to relate to others. I'm quite lonely as one can imagine. Some of my interests include video games, animated movies and TV (including children's shows, I don't know if that's common here lol), computer programming(mainly systems languages), foreign languages/cultures, and literature.
I guess I don't really have a particular way I feel about pedophilia, it's just something I have/am. I have the misfortune of being near-exclusive or heavily preferential, I'm not sure which of those terms is more widespread. I suppose it makes me sad to think about having this, as I'm particularly attuned to the difficulties it causes me in my daily life. That sadness is contrasted poignantly however, by the overwhelmingly wonderful feeling I get anytime I'm near a little girl. Their faces, minds, personalities, hair, bodies, and most of all their voices, all make life seem much more bearable. I'll just say right now that I am one of the "non offending" or "no contact" pedophiles, even in not using illegal material, although I do love on topic drawings, and looking at "normal" pictures of girls. I wouldn't be surprised if soon they ban having even those things though. I promise I won't lecture others or consider myself superior or more "pure" for not using illegal material, I've just personally chosen to stay away from that content, for many reasons, one among them being that I do have a propensity towards behavioral addiction.
I suppose the main thing I'm looking for from joining this community is a sense of belonging and to feel less lonely. To be able to openly talk about my thoughts and truly be myself. Like I mentioned earlier, having this attraction has made it exceedingly difficult to make friends IRL. It feels as if I can't let anyone get too close, for fear of them finding out about my attraction. Always examining your words and self censoring is exhausting. I simply cannot be my true self, no one would ever accept me that way. It always feels like there's something fundamentally missing from all my interactions, something that everyone else gets to enjoy freely, and without having to think about it. I often think about how different I am from everyone else, I feel like an alien or of another species. Perhaps this community can give me something I've been missing for a very long time now, a feeling of genuine connection with another person.
I like this specific community because the discussions that are had on here are very interesting, not just because of their content, but because of the raw, unfiltered nature of everyone's responses. I greatly value authenticity and genuineness in people. Most people who have to put on a persona for the world probably do. Even if certain topics or thoughts are uncomfortable, I'd rather hear what people genuinely think instead of what society says they should think. I also really liked that line in the Applying for Membership guide, about how this is a forum for people who truly love children. Not using them for sexual gratification, but loving every part of them. The same way people talk about "true love" between adults, I've always felt that way about the girls I love in my life. Sadly, I haven't felt that at all for a single adult since I became one myself.
As for what I would bring to the community, I suppose I could bring a somewhat different perspective and contribute meaningfully to the discussions on this forum. Like I said, I am a "non offending" MAP/Pedo, but I have no problems with talking to those who have "offended" either virtually or IRL. I know that perhaps if my life circumstances were different, I may have crossed that line myself. I love listening to others and offering advice or kind words to help someone through any problems they may be having. In making myself feel less lonely, I can also help others in this community feel less lonely as well.
Membership approved. [.
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It's great to have you Warren. You look like you fit right in. I hope you stick around and chat!
Quote from: WarrenW on 03 May, 2026, 05:03:38I've been lurking here for a long while now, and have made the decision to try and finally sign up and join this interesting community. I honestly don't remember how I found this site, I think I was playing around on one of the those tor search engines, and a thread from this site came up as one of the results. Anyways, a little about myself, I'm a man who absolutely adores little girls, unfortunately to the point of near exclusivity. I have had relationships with adults, but it's been exceedingly rare for me to feel genuinely attracted to someone who is age appropriate for a long time now. Predictably, having this attraction has made it rather difficult to make friends or even be able to relate to others. I'm quite lonely as one can imagine. Some of my interests include video games, animated movies and TV (including children's shows, I don't know if that's common here lol), computer programming(mainly systems languages), foreign languages/cultures, and literature.
I too absolutely love all of those things. Since you asked about how common things are, and because this too is something I obsessively try to uncover, here is my best guess ranking how common each of those things are within the membership of this site. Ordered from most common to least common:
video games
animated movies and TV
literature
children's shows
foreign languages/cultures
computer programming
exclusive pedo
Yes, there are more programmers in this community than there are exclusive pedophiles. Most wouldn't choose to watch a children's show unless watching with a little friend. And is there anyone who doesn't like video games? Too bad it isn't safe for us to play with each other, or even talk about achievements unlocked. It's probably not even safe to mention too many titles in your library, as that is something the gaming companies can look up and narrow down your identity.
Hi, Warren! Welcome to our community, I've approved your membership.
OOP or procedural?
Membership approved. [.
Quote from: LikelyHuman on 03 May, 2026, 15:32:49OOP or procedural?
Thank you for the approval. Mainly OOP, since that's what they taught in school. C++ is my main language. I'm not a professional developer, so my knowledge is not as deep as I'd like. But I'm always open to learning new technologies/paradigms.
Quote from: Lillab on 03 May, 2026, 06:57:45Yes, there are more programmers in this community than there are exclusive pedophiles. Most wouldn't choose to watch a children's show unless watching with a little friend.
I really appreciate the kind words Lillab. And yeah, I figured my behaviors were pretty rare, even among this community. My therapist has told me that among her patients, I am a
very unique case. This is a therapist that specializes in helping those with this particular issue as well lol.
Quote from: WarrenW on 03 May, 2026, 17:24:57Quote from: LikelyHuman on 03 May, 2026, 15:32:49OOP or procedural?
Thank you for the approval. Mainly OOP, since that's what they taught in school. C++ is my main language. I'm not a professional developer, so my knowledge is not as deep as I'd like. But I'm always open to learning new technologies/paradigms.
I figured it was either C or C++ as a system's language. I mostly dabble in C as part of Linux sysadmin'ing. It comes in handy. Though some day I suppose everything will be Rust.
I'm curious, if you don't mind me asking, which Tor search engine did you find us on?
Quote from: LikelyHuman on 03 May, 2026, 17:38:42I'm curious, if you don't mind me asking, which Tor search engine did you find us on?
I believe it was Torch. It was years ago. I remember it being fairly easy to get to from that Hidden Wiki page. I believe it's listed on there in a "Tor search engines" section. I remember being a little curious and typing "pedo" or something similar, and a random post from this forum appeared as one of the results. I never knew there was a forum like this. I bookmarked the page, and I've been occasionally checking in ever since.