I have a lot to share about this topic because I have taken so many stupid risks. I am going to start with one that is mid-level stupid. A few years back I had a large Tumblr blog. This was when porn was ok to share on Tumblr. Well, a lot of people were sharing CP on Tumblr and some even shared it on my blog page. (I never directly shared CP on Tumblr). I was going on a trip for a few days and was not going to have my computer and would miss out on my CP consumption which I practiced multiple times a day. So I downloaded a bunch of CP pictures and gifs to my mobile phone from Tumblr.
Oh back in the day i was terrible with cp. It was around 2010-11 so you had some mercy because I don't think AI hashchecks were even a thing yet, the cloud was a obscure concept, most phones weren't that smart, and vpns were pretty strong. I remember having like hundreds of pics and videos just on my phone and going to the bathroom in late middle school to jerk off because some boy or girl had done something that reminded me of someone in those pics. I just had it completely unencrypted on my phone, I might have put it behind a "vault" app which was a third party app that had a 5 digit pass code that was not encrypted at all. Well one day I thought I was alone in the bathroom and I turned the volume up a little bit so I could hear the girl masturbating too and she let out, randomly a LOUD ass moan. Then I heard someone in the next stall laugh. My heart skipped a beat, but nothing came of it. I think they just thought I was listening and watching normal porn.
If we are talking dumbest risks though ive taken, dude theres so many. Trading cp on a clearweb app that ended up reporting me and getting me raided, getting caught molesting my cousin in her sleep, nearly getting caught molesting a 2 year old girl, secretly stealing all the girls panties from a pool party and cumming in them and just barely being able to sneak them back in to the proper bags(i also got lowkey caught doing this but I was able to talk my way out of it), rubbing girls without their permission, peeing in front of a random little girl on a beach when her parents were moments away, meeting a 13 year old at a music festival, making out with her, and then giving her my real phone number and real social media info, driving hours and nearly hooking up with a 15 year old boy, accidently sleeping with a 16 year old boy( i learned this recently), grooming kids on omegle from my home ip, i mean the lists go on and on. Basically every single one of the times ive indulged in my urges its been stupid risks. Thats pretty much the only way you really can live as a pedo if you are active, is by taking stupid risks. On paper, these penalties are so high it feels stupid to even attempt, much less do. And you can only control so much. A lot of the time truth is its out of your hands.
When I was a kid I jumped from a crag into the sea without considering if there was rocks or even a beach underneath me. Have no idea how I survived to adulthood sometimes.
Guess the worse risk I took on topic was a few years ago I had sex with a minor on Carnaval. He wasn't even in my aoi but was close enough and I was drunk enough. So much could have gone wrong.
My dumbest risks by far are having sex with girls who were old enough to remember the experience. The consequences of these risks has defined decades of my life. But that is just one part of my story. I was also an exhibitionist with a compulsion to masturbate in front of women and girls. This was an area of my life I simply couldn't control for at least 10 years. I masturbated mainly in front of single women and girls, but if I saw a group of girls I would sometimes whip it out and pleasure myself. I actually did this in front of a small group of cheerleaders who were practicing at a ball field. Clearly, I had and have a mental problem haha. I mean seriously, I laugh at myself now when I think back on my exploits.
On another note, I used to think that other pedo's were sexual deviants like me. But PSC has taught me that this is not the case. If you go on the typical board where CP is being shared, everyone relishes being a pervert. But this is not reality. Just because you are a pedo, does not make you a pervert.
So many... need to think on this. Definitely my cavalier attitude in my twenties about tapping the hebe, early teen mid teen crowd. Never worried about being told on, any of that. Even after some unpleasant near misses, none reached out to permanently harm me. Could they today? Definitely, and as noted in other posts one lady definitely tried. But it was pre "Me Too", so I survived that.
I'll have to think about specific incidents, they definitely exist.
In my non girl life, I survived my teen years despite living in an environment where getting to your twenties without a felony was rare. I did things that could have ended badly. I did things that in today's world, hell the world of the last 25 years would have put me in jail for a long time. But I managed to survive that as well. By being just a tad paranoid about certain things that let me escape the negative social consequences.
At the time I was way more worried about that stuff than the possible consequences of, for example, getting an underage girl pregnant. Which happened to me once, but as luck would have it her young adult brother took care of it for her... and almost me. I was so fucking reckless. But that is a perfect example. Not only fucking underage ladies, but never using protection. That was me.
Probably my most reckless was when I worked at a camp, there was this girl (maybe 7 or 8) who I quite liked and she seemed to like me, but I was quite dumb at the time. I would have her sit in my lap and basically feel her up a bit while their were plenty of others in the room, did this a few different times. I have no idea how no one else in the room never noticed it going on, but definitely was not my smartest moment in life.
Well, definitely every time I have done something with a child is pretty reckless. Those really should be at the top of my list, and yet I don't find myself counting them, as I see them as necessary risks, pursuing things that were very important to me, and I tried to be as careful as I could be. They are smart risks, not dumb risks. I also got much better at doing it safer with practice. Instead, I find myself putting at the top of my list when I tried to get some CP about 15 years ago. I used a VPN, but they have my credit card and can tie everything directly to me. I tried to torrent whatever on topic stuff I could. It worked to download nudist stuff, but any attempt to get softcore/hardcore was blocked, due to coming from VPN. I knew the majority of these were just honeypots to catch people like me, which is exactly why they block VPN traffic. Often they put it up as encrypted CP, so you won't get anything from downloading, and yet they can still prosecute you. I knew it was incredibly dangerous to download it without a VPN, but while messing with settings, seeing if I can make it work anyway, I accidentally turned off my VPN, and I ended up downloading most of a CP video before I realized what is happening, and quickly shut it down. I was panicked for quite some time, but nothing came of it. But I did get a corrupted video out of it, which still worked, just with large chunks that were blank. So for a long time, I had an encrypted stash that consisted of this video and lots of nudist stuff. Maybe it's nostalgia, but I swear this video might still be my favorite CP video, and at times I have been tempted to see if I could find the original video or even more content of those two sisters. Either way, this was probably the time I have most been upset at myself for my recklessness. I knew this was a horrible way to collect CP, and I did it anyway, walking straight into what I saw as an obvious trap, and felt incredibly lucky the trap didn't snap down on me.
Sending things over Discord. I know, I know, whack me on the head. I'm long gone from there.
I downloaded pics of nude preteen boys on several diskettes at home, took them with me to work and printed out pictures of these boys when everyone else went home for the day. Probably not that risky, but still feels kinda foolish looking back at it now.
I did something similar in my early days of collecting. Before I had adequate storage, I'd literally collage pictures in a Word document and print them out. Pretty dumb, in retrospect, but I soon invested in a more adequate way to save content. Those printed pages were cleansed with fire. [.
Quote from: on the rocks on 13 January, 2026, 00:24:38I did something similar in my early days of collecting. Before I had adequate storage, I'd literally collage pictures in a Word document and print them out. Pretty dumb, in retrospect, but I soon invested in a more adequate way to save content. Those printed pages were cleansed with fire. [.
Years ago I also printed off some CP. I was going on a solo camping trip and needed my pics. So dumb....
I started collecting CP in the mid-90s, mostly from Usenet groups (anyone remember alt.sex. pedophilia and all of the binaries contained within?) It was early on in the home internet days, and I didn't know any better, but I was d/ling it and viewing it on the clearnet, with no vpn, storing it on my HD with no encryption. Now, I don't think those things existed or were readily available, and I don't know how easy it was for LEA to track that back then, but, looking back on it, viewing it in the context of today's environment, I'm happy that nothing happened.
There have been a few risky things I did with young girls over the years. I was babysitting my very young, ie toddler aged, niece at her mom's house. I was touching her and performing oral on her while she was on her hands and knees, in the living room, within full view of the front door. It had literally only been a couple of minutes after we finished and I got her dressed, when her grandfather came walking through that front door unannounced. If I had just taken a bit longer with her, it would have been very bad for me. Skip forward a few years, and I was babysitting that same niece almost every day for 6 months, and we would play every day (I have documented this in some past posts here). Every time we did it, it was in the living room right underneath the bedroom where my (ex) wife was sleeping. We could always hear her getting up, and she very rarely ever came downstairs right out of bed, but we always scrambled to get dressed before she did come down, so there was always that risk that we could have been too engrossed in what we were doing, only to have her come downstairs and see us.
There was also a few times, when I was in my late teens and my youngest sister was 7-8, where she would have friends sleeping over, and I would go into her room in the middle of the night, lift up her friends' nightshirt, pull down her panties, and spread her pussy and/or ass open to get a good look, smell and occasionally, taste (not really proud of that, but....) If any of them had woken up, or my parents had gotten up to use the washroom....
My dumbest risk of storing on-topic material was a couple decades ago. I took a bunch of nudes and non-nudes, loaded them on an SD card, and put that into a digital picture frame that would randomly rotate through pictures. All unencrypted, and I didn't even try hard to keep the frame or the SD card hidden. Pretty stupid.
Quote from: on the rocks on 13 January, 2026, 00:24:38I did something similar in my early days of collecting. Before I had adequate storage, I'd literally collage pictures in a Word document and print them out. Pretty dumb, in retrospect, but I soon invested in a more adequate way to save content. Those printed pages were cleansed with fire. [.
Back in the early days, I would print out pictures, too, and keep them close at hand in my bedroom, for use when something else was "close at hand" lol Sometimes I would print them out and forget that I left them at my desk or in the printer-it was a good thing that I didn't have many visitors back then.
Good thread. So many dumb risks taken,everything that has already been said about trading CP over clearnet,using p2p to download kidporn,left a browser history with "child super models" links that my roommates found, etc. But probably the riskiest in terms of just about getting stupidly caught was fondling a sleeping 9 year old who woke up in the middle of it. :oops Turns out that 10mg of zolpidem wasn't enough to do the trick. I was freaking out for the rest of the night hoping that she wouldn't rat me out, but in the morning she had no memory of it (I think). It turns out that the zolpidem/ambien must have been enough to keep her from remembering it. Big lesson learned and too close for comfort.
Quote from: WhiteRabbit on 13 January, 2026, 18:45:58left a browser history with "child super models" links that my roommates found
I loved Child Super Models! This might have been the first thing I started saving a collection of, back in the day. In fact, I still have them in my collection. They are all non-nude, and not terribly suggestive, but definitely makes you look like a pedo. I kept a few saved on my phone over 20 years ago, so while at school and feeling a little depressed, I could try to sneak a peak of a cute smiling child from my phone to help brighten my day. It was a little risky, but at least the worst thing that could happen is taking a hit to my reputation. It would so brighten my day though, I think it was worth it.
When PC printers finally got good at printing pictures, I couldn't help but print an 8x10 glossy of my favorite curly haired blonde hebe posing topless. That picture defined erotic for me. I lived alone at the time and posted it on the wall of the bedroom I used as an office. It didn't last too long, I eventually got paranoid enough and I shredded it.
Thinking back, the other crazy stupid thing I would do when I was involved with a 8yo developing girl was write out different sexy poses I wanted to try with her on index cards. They ranged from lightly erotic to full on pornographic, and I was highly detailed, the cards would be covered in fine print front and back. I was a big amateur photographer in those days, and I would spend hours fantasizing about our next picture session while sitting in an office at work. I would bundle up those cards at the end of the day, put them in my briefcase and take them home.
And yes, I would use them. At least I destroyed them afterwards.
And this was the girl I was caught with by my girlfriend, so yes side evidence existed at that moment. At least until mid morning the next day, when everything was destroyed. It was the end of anything non digital and non encrypted material I had related to girls, and some prime original material was lost with it. While sad, it was also a good day, when my security became notably better after years of dodging bullets.